The actress and entrepreneur opens up about surrender, struggles, and the grace she’s found in raising her two children.

“Being pregnant is the most feminine I’ve ever felt. Both times, I was deeply in my divine feminine,” says actress, entrepreneur, and proud mommy of two, Fulu Mugovhani-Modibedi, describing a season that unfolds differently for every woman.

 

For her, even with the challenges of carrying on a petite frame, pregnancy and motherhood have revealed layers of strength, tender lessons, and a love that knows no limits.

 

“I’ve had to surrender a lot of power and control since becoming a mother,” she admits — a truth many parents can relate to.

 

Interestingly, motherhood was never part of Fulu’s plan. The thought of being fully responsible for another human being once left her feeling unworthy and unsure. She questioned whether she was really cut out for it.

But everything changed when she welcomed her baby girl. Something magical shifted within her.

“Once I allowed myself to go with the flow — the natural progression of things — I found such joy in motherhood. So much so, that when conceiving didn’t happen as quickly as I expected the second time around, I grew frustrated. I kept asking myself, ‘Come on body, why aren’t we doing this?’” she recalls.

 

That longing turned into a year of trying — a year filled with hope, frustration, and five negative pregnancy tests that quickly dampened her excitement. Alongside this, Fulu also had to undergo surgery to remove fibroids, a process that demanded even more patience and faith.

“The shock was thinking everything would be easy, never anticipating the struggles that followed. When I missed my period the first time, I brushed it off as my imagination. But the second time, I just knew it had finally happened. They always say it happens when you stop trying — and we really are that cliché,” she smiles.

Her pregnancies, however, came with their own challenges. The first was marked by extreme nausea and body discomfort, and the second brought pelvic girdle pain — a condition that caused severe pain in her pelvic floor and left her unable to walk.

 

 

“I had to be on bed rest because there was no remedy. There was no painkiller I could take. It was excruciating. But let me tell you, if it wasn’t for how much I longed for this life to come into being, I probably would have hated pregnancy. Instead, I accepted that this was my journey. If that was my cross I had to bear, then I would carry it,” she says with grace.

 

Another challenge, she shares, was not being able to breastfeed her daughter for as long as she had hoped. Yet even in these struggles, every hurdle only deepened her understanding of what motherhood truly means.

 

The transition from never imagining herself as a mother to now embracing it as her greatest joy has been profound. For Fulu, motherhood has become synonymous with protection.

 

“I personally view my spiritual wellbeing, my mental health, my husband, and my children in the highest regard. That’s why I guard them so carefully. I am deliberate about not exposing these parts of me to people who might misunderstand, project negativity, or take away from what is sacred. I am protective over my children and my family,” she explains.

 

This is also why she rarely shares much about her babies.

 

But the transition has not only been about shielding them — it’s also about the lessons her children have taught her.

 

“My kids have taught me to care less about what people say — whether it’s compliments or criticism in my career. Don’t get me wrong, I’m grateful for all the love and support. But becoming a mom helped me realise that my identity isn’t rooted in my work. It’s in the relationships I get to nurture, experience, and create. My truest identity is being a mom — the best mom I can be to my babies,” she reflects.

 

Her son is just under a year old now, and with every new season of motherhood, Fulu continues to embrace each layer of who she is becoming — wife, mother, actress, business owner, and student. This time, she carries it all with grace, preparing for each chapter without the pressure of returning to who she once was, but instead honouring the woman she is today.

 

Each day is approached with grace — lessons carried from her first rodeo.

 

“Right now, I am just allowing a natural flow of things, accepting that not everything will be in equilibrium. With my first pregnancy, I was in a rush to get back to who I was. To get my body back, my mind back, and the more I was fighting against the natural order of things, the more it fought me back. I found myself failing, and the more I failed, the deeper I sank into postpartum depression and anxiety.

 

“Until I realised that it was all self-inflicted. I did that to myself, so right now I am letting go of control. As long as my family and babies are happy, I’m fine,” she adds with full contentment.

 

For Fulu, support has also been a lifeline — especially from her husband — though she is quick to salute single mothers who manage to make it all happen on their own.

 

“I hope to raise children who are secure in themselves — who know who they are without needing the world to define them. I want them to grow in confidence, with humility, and to always remember that even when mommy and daddy aren’t around, God is with them,” she shares softly.

 

In her own time, with gentleness and intention, Fulu and her husband are writing their own parenting rules — guided by grace, anchored in faith, and embracing the joy that comes with it.